Understanding my "Blackness"

I didn't know I was black until I moved to Canada. 

Most of my life up until that point had been spent navigating class divisions but my migration brought with it the awareness of another social location that I had not really thought about: race. 

And yet, because of the colour of my skin, there was an expectation that I would understand the history, culture, struggles and weight that came with being 'black' in North America. This is where I pulled up - still pull up - short in my understanding. 

What exactly does it mean to be 'black'? 

Moreover, does the definition of blackness or rather the understanding of what it means to be black change with geographical location? 

This thread of reflection has been largely influenced by the development and growth of the Black Lives Matter movement Toronto chapter that has been working to bring about awareness of police brutality and racism against people of colour in Toronto. 

I see their posts and the activism that they engage in and feel as though I'm watching from the outside. 

How do I get in? 

Do I want to get in? 

Do I have the right to "be in"? 

I think this post is the beginning (continuation?) of me seeking understanding and direction on how to engage with a community that I have been placed in though I had no prior knowledge of it. 

I want to learn more - to understand - to engage.

How can I do that?  

And most importantly, how can I do that in a way that glorifies God?